Saturday, October 31, 2009


(photo: internet)

i am interested in cross-cultural events of which halloween is one. halloween has its roots in the celtic festival of samhain and the christian holy day of all saints. while it is largely a secular celebration it also has strong, perceived religious overtones.

the colors of black and orange are associated with the celebrations, perhaps because of the darkness of night and the color of fire or pumpkins or perhaps because of merchandising. jack-o'-lanterns, trick-or-treating, wearing costumes and attending costume parties, telling scary stories and watching horror films are also part of the ritual.

today is halloween. in nyc city it is virtually a sacred holiday as new yorkers go to elaborate lengths to think up and produce creative and unusual costumes. tonight the legendary halloween parade will be held in greenwich village. because halloween falls on a saturday this year, besides the parade, there are bound to be parties, balls and festivities galore.

while i like the concept of trick or treat; only the treating appeals to me. love the loot in the form of a bag full of individually wrapped candies. the costumes, particularly the masks, have always confused and upset me a little. the idea of more witches, ghosts, goblins, ghouls and devils let loose on the world is a little overwhelming. and i MUST admit, i'm not very creative in the costume department.

regardless... happy halloween... may your bags be full of candy and pennies for UNICEF.

Friday, October 30, 2009

right mindfulness...

while surfing the web this morning found the Magnified Thoughts article on The Daily Motivator page of

in buddhism the seventh aspect of the eightfold path says in part, "... right mindfulness enables us to be aware of the process of conceptualization in a way that we actively observe and control the way our thoughts go." or stated differently.

Magnified Thoughts

What you think, affects where your life goes. For each thought is magnified and manifested through the whole of your existence.

Positive thinking empowers much more than your thoughts. Negative thinking can dismantle every part of your life.

You always have a choice of what to think. When making that choice, always remember each thought has great power that continues long after the thought has passed from your consciousness.

Though thinking does not make it so, thinking makes you make it so. What you think becomes what you live.

Ralph Marston

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Roy DeCarava...

December 9, 1919 - October 27, 2009

Roy DeCarava died october 27th at the age of 89. Mr. DeCarava born in harlem was a photographer who wrote in his 1952 application for a guggenheim fellowship, "i do not want a documentary or sociological statement." he explained, his goal was instead "a creative expression, the kind of penetrating insight and understand of negroes which i believe only a negro photographer can interpret."

according to peter galassi, the chief curator of photography at the museum of modern art, "no photographer black or white before him had really shown ordinary domestic life so perceptively and tenderly, so persuasively."

may his missions be accomplished

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

who knew...

who knew i would be a baseball fan (of sorts)... if it's not rained out, the world series starts tonight. all i can say is: GO YANKEES!!!!!


do not want my blog to be a rant against politicians, injustice or the world at large. use to be a news junkie but now try to ignore most news outlets because around every corner seems to be doom, gloom and corruption. although admittedly there are positive, uplifting stories tucked here and there that's not usually the primary focus of the media. well, today, i'm breaking my rant rule.

andre agassi was a crystal methamphetamine user and he lied to the ATP when he tested positive in 1997. will he be stripped of his awards, humiliated and sent to prison the way marion jones was? what's that adage "what's good for the goose is good for the gander"?

spent sunday in connecticut with friends. driving the long country roads saw lots of political signs endorsing this or that one. a "dump dodd", as in chris dodd, was a little shocking to me because as a nyer watching connecticut news i have grown to like and respect chris dodd. YET joe lieberman is about to join the gop in their filibuster of health care reform. where is the hue and cry to dump lieberman for his betrayal of his constituents? joe just declare yourself a republican. we haven't forgotten how you behaved at the republican convention, how you coveted the republican vice-presidential nod, followed mccain like a lapdog or how you bashed barack, the nominee of your party,when you still called yourself a democrat.

and barack! when are you going to stop being so conciliatory to the republicans. they DON'T want to and are not going to play fair. we get it WHY don't you?? we voted for change we can believe in and right now i'm not believing. sign an executive order to end "don't ask, don't tell". when are we going to end these wars?

and don't even get me started about the financial institutions and wall street or the outright, daylight robberies they are committing against the american people. or the incompetent regulatory agencies... could go on... but i won't.

may peace prevail on earth and in me.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009


i feel fine... perky and in the pink (as they say)... thank you to everyone for your prayers and best wishes.


i used to shoot with a polaroid joycam which i truly loved. when i could no longer find 500 film because polaroid stopped making most instant films, i purchased a digital camera sold under the polaroid name. have finally stopped mourning the loss of polaroid film and now, four years later my polaroid digital camera is "biting the dust"...

once when we went to france i took 30 boxes of film, 300 prints, and became quite adept at locating the film in almost any town we visited. all told, that trip, i took almost 1000 pictures.

wanted to share a few of my polaroids.

may peace prevail on earth and in me.

Friday, October 23, 2009


a friend has this sign posted on one of the ridges of her tennessee home.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

sunny and warm...

first... i feel 100% better than i have, even though i'm still a little slow climbing stairs. the grass has just been cut and i'm even thinking of hitting a few golf balls BUT that might be pushing it.

we have a herd of deer, 10-12, who live and graze in our back yard. i would say the deer population in eastern long island is exploding in records numbers and needs DESPERATELY to be thinned.

in the past two days i have picked up approximately 30-40 lbs of deer poop!!! the p detail got a little behind schedule because i was "out of it". and NO, it's not good for the plants or lawn. i have a par 3 (sort of) and it was on my fairway and green . (lol!!!) i certainly don't want my golf balls to land in it... shudder at the thought. anyway we took the poo to the local dump and disposed of it.

that said, it's a lovely day in the neighborhood and i'm feeling fine.

may peace prevail on earth and in me.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


last year this seven story drawing adorned the side of a soho building... it was quickly painted over.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

mindfulness is...

Mindfulness is the aware, balanced acceptance of the present experience.
It isn't more complicated than that.
It is opening to or receiving the present moment, pleasant or unpleasant, just as it is, without either clinging to it or rejecting it.
Sylvia Boorstein

the above quote can never be repeated enough.

may peace prevail on earth and in me.

Monday, October 19, 2009

la lutte continue...

we had a nor'easter yesterday which caused strong winds and lots of rain, flooding in some low lying areas. in its place today is sunshine and blue skies. after four days of heavy, ominous gray clouds the partly, cloudy blue sky is a welcomed relief. even the birds seem happy as they flit in large numbers from tree to tree.

before my "master cleanse" episode i was going through storage boxes. many of my things have been in storage and/or boxes for way too long. i had started sorting stuff into giveaway piles, yard sale piles and just toss it piles. la lutte continue as they say. normally the phrase is used in a political context... i mean it politically and personally.

may peace prevail

fortune girl...

want to welcome my friend, LAFF, Fortune Girl to the blogging world. LAFF is an artist selling cars in oklahoma and i know her blog is going to be funny and informative. we've known each other since we both lived in paris a good many years ago. look forward to reading your post Fortune Girl.

Sunday, October 18, 2009


i want to thank my partner for her nurturing love these past weeks. i know it hasn't been easy to see someone you love sprawled on the bathroom floor, unconscious and "looking dead" not once but twice! i know the worry she endured seeing me curled in a hospital bed tethered to antibiotics and saline solutions not knowing what was causing the internal bleeding but praying that it was contained.

her quick action allowed me, i'm sure, to be here today to write this post.

donc, je dis, je vous remercie encore et je t'aime.

Irving Penn...

i was so busy being sick and unable to write my blog that i didn't get to note the death of one of my favorite photographers, irving penn. i cannot look at a gingko leaf without thinking of irving penn and the cover of his book Passage.

irving penn died october 8th at the age of 92. according to the new york times, mr. penn "was one of the most prolific and influential photographers of fashion and the famous of the 20th century. his signature blend of classical elegance and cool minimalism was recognizable to magazine readers and museum goers worldwide."

may his missions be accomplished

Saturday, October 17, 2009

subway art...

Friday, October 16, 2009

here and now...

Do not pursue the past.
Do not lose yourself in the future.
The past no longer is.
The future has not yet come.
Looking deeply at life as it is.
In the very here and now,
the practitioner dwells
in stability and freedom.
We must be diligent today.
To wait until tomorrow is too late.
Death comes unexpectedly.
How can we bargain with it?
The sage calls a person who knows
how to dwell in mindfulness night and day,
'one who knows the better way to live alone.'
Bhaddekaratta Sutta


just spoke with the doctor on my case, a wonderful young woman. GOOD news all around!!! the pathologies were returned and i am cancer FREE. my hemoglobin count which was 8.2 when i left the hospital is now up to 9.9. i brought it up that much in three days!!

ideally, your hemoglobin level should be 12 and i have a ways to go but... in three weeks i'll have my blood tested again and probably in a couple of months will do another stomach scope to have the "angry" ulcers accessed.

i am firmly rooted in the present and am glad that i'm ok... and on the mend.

THANK YOU to everyone for your concern, prayers and well wishes.

may peace prevail on earth and in me.

Thursday, October 15, 2009


i am feeling much better... still haven't gotten the results of the biopsies that were taken from the ulcers and my stomach. (the biopsies were a standard procedure.) BUT i'm going with healthy... am feeling stronger and more energetic each day.

since i was released from the hospital on saturday afternoon i have been ravenous and i swear i haven't stopped eating. ONLY good, healthy foods of course. (LOL)

the five days of bed rest at home when i thought i had the flu and the hospitalization time have combined. they feel like a sheet of paper that is being folded into strips to make a fan or airplane like we use to in grade school. feel that period collapsing and being placed in the chest of my memories.

on a funny note... i was given a stomach scope and a colonoscopy at the same time. the ONLY moment during this whole episode that i felt frightened was when the guard was placed in my mouth for the scope. looking at the thin, flexible, snakelike instrument brought up a primal fear. but anyway... after they finally found a vein, seems i have very small veins that DON'T like needles, i was given anesthesia. the last thing i heard was, "we're giving you the same drug that michael jackson was taking".

later, when i was wheeled into the small recovery area i sat up and trilled, "am i on ebay?" after the ebay remark i proceeded to tell a number of people that i remembered them. then i laid down again. a couple of days later one of the phlebotomists who was present in the recovery area, she was one of the, 'i remember you and your little puff puff (hairdo)", came at 6 am to take my blood. she said, "you had everyone smiling and looking at you saying, i want what she's on."

may peace prevail on earth and in me.

down the hall...

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

st eusache...

Sunday, October 11, 2009


on tuesday, october 6th, i passed out from basman vagal syndrome... was bleeding internally... the master cleanse that i started a week or so ago had upset two stomach ulcers i didn't know i had and caused them to bleed. i was taken by ambulance to the hospital where i stayed five days (was released yesterday afternoon). i had off the charts anemia, was completely dehydrated and suffering major sodium and mineral loss. i lost a GREAT deal of blood and will have to work to replenish it...

i have not had contact on a personal level with the health care industry, other than physicals and that sort of thing, since i was 9 years old (tonsillectomy). the experience i just had was EXCEPTIONAL.

first, the emergency, volunteer EMS workers arrived like the 9th infantry. the ten or so men and one woman arrived at our door, assessed the situation and carried me out. i was transported to a small shore town six miles away.

the doctors and nurses at our small eastern long island hospital worked tirelessly to uncover the source of the bleeding. the hospital is small but state of the arts. i was given two blood transfusions to help replenish some of the lost blood and went through a battery of tests and examinations to discover the root of the bleeding and rule out all other possibilities.

since i am one of the millions of under or uninsured i obviously knew what could happen to me if i had a life threatening illness. i received premium health care and was treated with dignity, compassion and respect.

i am very happy to say, in this day of way too many health care horror stories, the health care system DID NOT fail me. i know that i am loved and blessed and i say humbly, thank you.

may peace prevail

Friday, October 2, 2009


i have been very sick but i guess not just the me. the earth seems to be in real trouble. will catch up soon.
may peace prevail on earth