Thursday, December 31, 2009

blue moon...

tonight is the second full moon in december... hence once in a blue moon. each morning upon waking i write one page in a moleskin yearly journal; i have done this for the last five years without missing a day (even when i was hospitalized in october). these journals serve as a concrete marker of the passage of time and usually as a record of my night dreams. i wrote the last page in my yearly agenda this morning with a sense of wonder because i had reached the end of yet another year.

as the world awaits the beginning of a new year i am grateful for the blessings, friendship and love in my life. my guides and angels have worked overtime in 2009!! it has been an eventful and sometimes trying year but i look with optimism toward twenty ten. unbelievable that we will soon be writing 2010!! the future is now.

"Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us." Hal Borland

may peace prevail on earth and in me.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009


the above was created by banksy a wonderful graffiti artist.
may peace prevail on earth

more banksy...

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Percy Sutton...

24 november 1920 - 26 december 2009

Percy Sutton, a lawyer who defended Malcolm X and argued many controversial cases, died yesterday at the age of 89. mr. sutton who became a media mogul, purchased WLIB-AM which was the first african-american owned radio station in new york city. the station was owned by Inner City Broadcasting Corporation of which percy sutton was a cofounder. among his many endeavors mr sutton revitalized the apollo theater in harlem. his was a pillar of the harlem and new york city communities.

may his missions be accomplished

Friday, December 25, 2009

ho, ho, ho...

Monday, December 21, 2009


the blizzard of '09 (sounds like the beginning of an old timer's tale) began saturday night and continued through sunday morning. the snow was so powdery and dry!! it felt like fine snow cone ice and moved like white sand. the scalloped edges of some of the snow drifts resembled sand dunes. sometimes when you shoveled into the snow, perhaps a foot, you caught a quick glimpse of a turquoise color.

"the future lies before you, like paths of pure white snow. Be careful how you tread it, for every step will show." anonymous

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Brittany Murphy...

Brittany Murphy, a young actress i like a lot, died today at age 32. she had full cardiac arrest and could not be revived. saddened by her departure.

may her missions be accomplished.

hubble images...

scientists who monitor the hubble telescope have complied a group of the best pictures taken over the past 16 years. the pictures are absolutely beautiful and amazing!! i wanted to share a few of these extraordinary images of the universe.

may peace prevail

Saturday, December 19, 2009

happy holidays...

may peace prevail on earth

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

route 66...

headed back to oklahoma to visit my aunt and for "family" stuff.

"Family quarrels are bitter things. They don't go by any rules. They're not like aches or wounds; they're more like splits in the skin that won't heal because there's not enough material." F. Scott Fitzgerald

may peace prevail on earth and in me

Monday, December 14, 2009

dead end...

polaroid joycam... long island sound

Sunday, December 13, 2009


how time flies!!! i moved to ny, to brooklyn to be precise, 25 years ago today. it doesn't seem like yesterday but doesn't feel like half a lifetime either. knew i would stay awhile but didn't think it would be this long! recently had contact with high school friends who said i was "rude like a new yorker" and "you emphasize some words like a yankee"... suppose i can finally say i'm from new york. new york and paris, my beloved cities.

growing up my uncle would often ask when i was going to learn to cook. i would respond, "when i grow up i'm going to live in a city, in an apartment and go out to dinner every night." i managed to make good on that proclamation.

may peace prevail

Saturday, December 12, 2009

cazenac, france

may peace prevail

Thursday, December 10, 2009

peace prize...

today president obama humbly accepted the nobel peace prize. i haven't actually heard him delivering the speech but rather read the text. the speech was thoughtful, insightful and inspirational. i felt that he was calling on the people of the world to respond to their higher selves, "so let us reach for the world that ought to be, that spark of the divine that sill stirs within each of our souls." and he reminded us that we will not abolish war in our lifetimes. "We must begin by acknowledging the hard truth that we will not eradicate violent conflict in our lifetimes." while not able to totally rid our planet of war and violence he called on us not to be cynical and think that we can't work for peace through nonviolent means. i appreciated that he defined peace as civil rights, free speech and economic opportunity, not just the absence of conflict.

there was a great deal of rhetoric about being a wartime president and a lot of justification for the war in afghanistan. he stressed the need to fight war according to "rules of conduct" that reject torture, the murder of innocents and other atrocities and reaffirmed america's commitment to the geneva convention.

peace and war are yin/yang but i have to admit there is a certain irony in talking of war, especially the justification of it, when accepting an award for peace. suppose it's no more ironic than a peace prize being established by a man who made his fortune through the sale of munitions.

what i came away with was that barack obama is an optimistic realist. "Let us reach for the world that ought to be. We can understand that there will be war, and still strive for peace."

may peace prevail on earth

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

the holidays...

i know, i know, i know many people enjoy this time of the year because it conjures up good times, family and memories of yesteryear. i think of it this period as SAD (seasonal affective disorder). i am not using the phrase in the traditional sense, the change in light during the winter affecting people's moods. for some of us this time of year, the holiday season, triggers emotions which range from irritated to painful; hence seasonal affective disorder or plain SAD. i, for one, am trying not to fall down the rabbit hole of holiday blues.

the incessant and inescapable blare of christmas music, which this year started the day after halloween, the oft-manufactured nostalgia for a lost epoch and the constant command to buy, buy, buy can push one over the edge.

i attempt to treat the period from thanksgiving to december 26th like a giant sidewalk where you try not to step on the cracks. for many years during this season i would escape to france because christmas wasn't commercialized the way it is in the states and didn't bring up the same recollections. don't get me wrong... i'm not ebenezer scrooge and do wish everyone a happy holiday season... just wished we could remember the reason for the season a little more and work harder for peace on earth.

may peace prevail on earth and in me.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

long island sound...

may peace prevail on earth.


John Lennon a man of peace and an agent for change died 29 years ago today.
may his missions be accomplished.

Monday, December 7, 2009


polaroid joycam from another winter...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

no snow...

hooray!!! we didn't get the promised snow and it looks to be a beautiful sunny, cold and windy day. an old friend is visiting and we spent yesterday sitting in front of the wood stove eating, talking and laughing.

may peace prevail on earth.

Saturday, December 5, 2009


paris, "you are always on my mind".

Friday, December 4, 2009


walked on the beach yesterday. grateful for the motion that felt like an energy/spirit cleanse... release. found the following quote when i returned to my computer.

"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness concerning all acts of initiative and creation. There is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans; that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen events, meetings and material assistance which no one could have dreamed would have come their way. I have learned a deep respect for one of Goethe's couplets: “Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now!"

W. H. Murray


Thursday, December 3, 2009


though it wasn't a surprise, i am VERY disappointed with the announcement of 30,000 additional troops being sent to afghanistan. while president obama's speech was thoughtful and persuasive. i can't be convinced about the righteousness of the war. (with WW2 as the exception, i don't see the righteousness of any war). in 2001 we had the opportunity to capture bin laden and strike a major blow against the taliban and al qaeda and we didn't!! bush needed an excuse to go to war in iraq. so eight years later we're still looking for bin laden, the taliban is back not just in afghanistan but also in pakistan and more afghans, americans, nato troops and pakistanis will be injured or killed.

enough of these wars... as barack noted we need to take care of our own country, our infrastructure is crumbling, our institutions are tattered... our national morale was (is) low for a variety of reasons and further escalation of this war will only serve to worsen the situation.

many of us obtained a much needed jolt of hope with the campaign and election of BO... is that hope dimming as reality and politics as usual sets in? like jesse says, "keep hope alive", it's getting harder but i'm trying...

may peace prevail on earth

Wednesday, December 2, 2009


may peace prevail on earth

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

world aids day...

today is DWA or day without art. day without art began on december 1, 1989 as a national day of action and mourning in response to the aids crisis. this day is an international day of mourning for all those lost in the aids epidemic and also a call to action to make the public aware that AIDS touches everyone and is STILL an ever expanding worldwide epidemic.

for 28+ years this scourge has been ravishing our planet. each of us must make a personal effort to educate ourselves and others to stop the transmission of this disease. we must put an end to superstitions which have arisen in some countries proclaiming that raping a "virgin", sometimes as young as six months old, will cure an infected person.

teach, educate, practice.

since 1981 at LEAST 25 million have perished from aids or aids related diseases. tonight i will light a candle and say kaddish for so many that i know who died because of aids; before it had a name and after we were told what to call it. marvin, cedric, steven, jean-paul, alain, yan, james, donald, essex ... je vous manque et je pense souvent à vous.

may peace prevail on earth.